Chaotic Whispers

 Am I actually depressed? Or is the psychologist playing with my mind?


Yes, I agree that I’m having trouble dealing with my emotions. I get triggered easily, I cry, I overthink so much that my mind becomes overloaded, and only then does it calm down. I can’t focus on life, I can’t concentrate on things.


But maybe all of this is just a phase in life, right?


What if it’s normal?


Am I sabotaging myself?

Or am I using this “depression” to cover up my laziness—hiding behind it so that I can stay in my comfort zone without being judged?


Even when I used to have chronic pains, I would still get up and study so I could raise my standards. But now everything has just shut down.


What does this actually mean?


I thought self-talk would solve my problems. I can see my flaws and my good qualities, but I still can’t help myself overcome whatever is happening that makes me this sad, unmotivated person.


I can’t step out of my comfort zone. I know I can’t stay in this zone forever.


But I wish that if this is normal, if somehow it’s a blessing, then I want to stay in this comfort zone.


I wish the comfort zone could just be okay.


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