New Beginning Starts With Self-awareness

 

I realized that the part from The Mountain Is You about self-sabotage coming from unconscious negative thinking is actually true — I’ve experienced it myself. Honestly, at every turning point in my life, I did this.

And I believe everyone does this to some extent.

It’s about the fact that we ruin or stop ourselves from moving forward because something negative or terrifying is associated with it — whether it’s a memory, a person we dislike, or even just a comment that creates an illusion in our mind.

In my case, the things I sabotage daily are related to my creativity. I have ideas and a creative mind, I want to do something unique, something no one has done before, and become known and appreciated for it.

But I don’t take action because it’s new, and I’m scared I’ll become a laughing topic. Sometimes I get demotivated or too lazy to improve my skills. My mind always wants support from someone else to achieve something that is supposed to be my goal.

I’ve become so dependent that if people I expect support from don’t help me, I start seeing them as toxic — because I remember all the times I helped them but they didn’t do the same for me.

But in the end, I know it’s my loss, because I’m the one sabotaging my own growth.

Why can’t I be independent and confident?

After reading the book, at least I’ve become aware of my flaws. That itself gave me some satisfaction, knowing that I’m not alone and that other people face these challenges too — which means I can overcome them.

I always thought my flaws — procrastination, lack of confidence, and social anxiety — were because of my poor academic foundation. But I’ve seen these traits in people who achieved great things, even people I admire.

It’s not that I’m happy about their flaws, but seeing them made me stronger and more confident. It gave me the push to stand up and start improving myself, so that the person I dream of becoming doesn’t stay just an imaginary idea, but becomes my reality.